i just realized that i am lost. 

im trying to find where a belong - apart from God.
its not working.

i want to be a christian.  i really love God.
i want to live my life - my way.
its not working.

so im lost.  im not happy.  im on the verge of really going backwards.
iv worked so hard to get where i am.  all to be lost at the end.
thats stupid.

so i need to be rescued. 
i need to find my way from here.
i cant go back
i dont want to be that person anymore.

i need to be rescued.