i did it again.. keep looking at this stuff... ugh. why cant i have a pure mind? why do i want to watch this stuff? god. please help me not want to watch this stuff. help me not desire that.  i want to desire you and only you. im so messed up.  i dont want to be addicted again.  please please help me.  please get these images out of my head. please. im begging you. i cant do it by myself. i need you. please.